Another opportunity knocked at my door and it is so agitating not to consider nor give it a thought. Perhaps it is because I know I can handle such responsibility and i would feel guilty if I'll let it slip off my hands without even considering it.
But the thing is I have a lot of things that's been going on - I've got lots of things on my plate that sometimes I could feel my body starts to stupefy and my brain cells pulverized. But then again, my mission to traverse a life on a different perspective is what makes me go on and keep on moving. It would be an understatement if I'd say I can do all of these without feeling tired and being fed up.
Funny thing is that up to this minute, I still couldn't feel my value, my being indispensable in the sense that losing me can put something into a halt. All my life I've been seeing myself as an ordinary individual who can be replaced by someone else every time they want to. My skills and talents, whatever you call it, are just ordinary abilities that anyone can do. Perhaps this mindset was caused by my unimpressive past and that I couldn't scratch off my back. The result? Low self-esteem and distrust to myself and others whenever I hear praises and recognition. I still haven't moved on from the dark shadow of the past.
But somehow, these new opportunities are little by little helping me regain my self-confidence and it's all-good. And if by chance I do cross over, I can tell myself soundly that I am valuable after all.
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